I feel as though this post has been a long time coming.
For some reason I’ve held off writing it, I believe the reason was that I didn’t feel complete with this concept. Now it feels absolutely symbolic to be writing this, especially at this time.
Three years ago, almost to the day, I left my full-time career as a practicing Architect.
For about 10 years I defined myself by my career, or rather my ego did. I knew my place in the world based on my title. It commanded a level of ‘professional’ respect amongst family, peers and anyone that happen to come into my life.
Surprisingly, with all this so-called attachment to the title, I actually felt lighter when I walked out of the office for the last time. Life had a sense of spaciousness about it. But the lightness and the spaciousness quickly dissipated weeks into my new role on the retail floor.
I could feel myself being ‘hooked’ by opportunities to mention that I was an Architect. What I didn’t realise was that I was beginning to grieve my career. I began to feel as though I wasn’t ‘someone’ unless I had a title. I thought I was free, but I wasn’t free at all. My ego kept dangling that carrot of prestige in front of me.
Thus the journey began. A journey into discovering who I really was, just me, no title, no definition. Blank canvas if you will.
I started to release my creative energy into the world in a multitude of ways, rather than the only way I had come to know. One of which was the birth of this very business – A Conscious Beauty.
Ultimately, it was a journey of trust and being sure of my inner knowing.
It took me a good two years before I realised the most important lesson:
Just because I no longer practice or have the title Architect doesn’t mean I’m no longer a creative person. As it happens, I believe I am creative in more areas of my life than I ever used to be.
Creativity is about sharing your soul with the world. It is your gift, your contribution.
It is defining ‘living’ on your own terms. For some of us it means breaking the rules in order to make our mark. It is how you express yourself in your clothing, in your home, in your work, how you play, how you dance, raise your children or the attention you put into the meals you make.
Without a title, I am free to create, AND I can re-create myself every day if I wish.
I unleash my desires and get wildly inspired.
I can create with my hands, my body, my voice or my words.
It’s accessible to all of us and better still,
You don’t need a title to do it.
