One of my core desired feelings for 2015 is to live in communion.
In 2014, it was to feel connected.
Tossing around these words, there isn’t a whole lotta differences between these two. But in the core of my being, by simply changing my focus ever so slightly, I discovered a whole lot more than I could ever have imagined.
Rewind to late 2014. I left behind many beautiful friends to move south to Melbourne. From the outside, you might look at this and say “didn’t you feel dis-connected with connectedness?”
True. Leaving a place I had spent several years in, growing and connecting so many friendships was a little scary.
But.
The timing couldn’t be better.
Because those 7 years I learnt what a loving friendship truly looked like. Friendships built on growing and learning together, these women were my tribe. They want to see me flourish, to expand, to fulfil my wildest dreams each to our own unique tune.
So, if to be connected is no longer it, then why do I feel resonance with communion?
I realised that to be connected, or to have connection with someone or something, was born out of a need to feel like I belonged. To my community, to my family and to my career.
In revisiting The Desire Map in early 2015, I began to realise that the word “connected” didn’t feel right, it felt somewhat superficial. I wanted to dive deeper. I challenged myself to go beyond the initial spark of a feeling. And then it hit me.
One of the definitions of communion is:
“an interchange or sharing of thoughts or emotions; intimate communication”
I had found the bottom of my feeling ocean.
I couldn’t be deeper than “intimate communication”.
Thanks to modern technology, to be connected is only a double tap or a thumbs up away. I was a seeker, and seeking out true connection is not found in like farms. It also looked like an intimacy beyond my community, friends or even husband, but also my body.
But to allow a new possibility in, sometimes you have to let go of something.
I had to trust that those deep connections I had made in Sydney, would sustain the distance, but also be open to thought that they might not. And that was ok.
There is power in creating a life based on how you want to feel. You have opportunities every day to choose what to keep, what to explore, and what is no longer serving you.
Call in the goodness.
By manifesting a life in communion, more beautiful women than ever before have become part of my tribe. And those friendships that I left behind? One life-giving hug the moment you see them again, tells all.
Perhaps you are wondering what being in communion looks like for me?
It means looking at every area of my life where there is “intimate connection”
// body, mind and spirit – maintaining rituals that serve my soul, especially yoga. Feeding and nourishing my body with quality, low chemical foods. Creating events or opportunities to speak my truth and open up that possibility for others.
// nature – choosing Organic, spending time at the park or by the ocean as often as possible.
// my relationships – calling my family, finding gaps in the day to spend time with my husband despite opposite schedules, only allow relationships in my life that allow me to expand and bring me joy.
If this has sparked your interest in The Desire Map process, click here to find out more.
Image care of Julia Caesar at Unsplash.
